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I dont know what I'm doing.. you make it seem so easy to just cut me out of your life.. did I really mean nothing to you? I feel like I've got a knife in my side that's slowly sinking in further. I see you posting things and you seem so fine. I know this is for the best.. but how are you supposed to just forget almost a year of your life? How are you supposed to keep going as if nothing happened? The ball is in your court right now and the waiting process is killing me. This is day one...what if a week goes by and still nothing? It's like I don't exist to you anymore...? I feel so pathetic.... I need to just not care.. I need to forget you... how am I supposed to just not care....