*sigh

Lately I haven't been able to find words to explain the way that things are affecting me... I haven't felt really like myself lately..

You said I've seemed sad the last couple of days.. Honestly, I've kinda felt sad.. I'm not really sure why..

Sometimes, I know, I want you to make the effort first.. I want you to text me first or ask me to join you with something or surprise me with things.. I want you to make the first move and make me feel like you like having me around..
I know you do of course.. but still..
Actions will always speak louder than words..

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Sometimes it's the lack of physical connection..
You feel so far away..
I need you to come find me, reach out to me somehow and show me you're still here.

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and it's not even really that big of a deal..
But you say you'll text me..
And 3 hours later, still no response, but you're on your phone on facebook and twitter, talking to other people there..
Yet you can't text me at all..

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I need to learn how to not care about stupid shit...
caring has always been my biggest downfall..
yet my strongest strength.
You are my biggest weakness...