Random writings.

Many days gone now, and I'm starting to realize how much you meant to me.
I know I said that I was through with this...

I just want to know whether this is just the desire for someone to hold me, or if I really made a mistake in letting you go..

I always knew I would regret this eventually...
I just want someone to care for once...

I say this..
Due to the fact that I discovered that the woman I thought cared for me more than the world...used to treat me like shit when I was younger.. but now that I'm old enough to fight back or remember what goes on.. she's trying to make up for it by being my "friend" or by doing whatever I ask.. part of me wants to hate you..but for now.. I'll just try to forget I ever heard the truth...


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I miss the way you smile, and the way you said my name.
I miss the way you held my hand, and told me I'd be okay.
I miss the way I knew you cared, and told me forever..

Why did I throw this away?
God...I really do know how to fuck up everything I encounter.