My reality.

It's hard finding words to explain a feeling you don't understand. I don't understand why people find hateful things funny. Why racist or violent things can be humorous. I don't understand how people can live with so little regard as to how their actions affect someone else. No one cares about the damage they're causing. I need safety. I have found myself crumbling under the weight of the worlds negativity. Even in the smaller aspect of things; a broken friend, a failed relationship, the loss of the most intimate and personal connection with someone... I'm searching for light in a shadowed world. I'm trying hard to fight back, but how do you fight back when you're actually only fighting yourself? It's my mind that gets me into trouble. I've allowed myself to become too sensitive. But how do you change who you are, or something you feel naturally?

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I wrote the above passage a few weeks ago.
But it still applies intensely..
Lately I've become more aware of my surroundings, to an almost painful extent. But I've been listening to the little thoughts in the back of your head, the little voice, that awkward gut feeling.
"Turn left," it says.. And when you listen and turn left, the road ahead ends up surprising you. I've found that when I listen to these little gut feelings or whatever they are, that something good happens. Or I'm where I'm meant to be for that moment in time. I was supposed to be there to experience something for a reason. Whether it's something to observe about the behavior of another, meet an individual(s), it's always somehow been for a reason that makes something in my reality just a little more clear.
I feel like I'm sensing the energies around me; feeling more than normal.
It's like those that are on the same page as me are being drawn out as well. Those that feel things and sense things are all saying similar words; feeling similar things. Even the dreams are starting to take more of a vivid appearance, or they're leaving behind a lasting emotion.

I'm not sure what's happening to my reality. But I can feel something. Something is coming.